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i feel...awkward after not blogging for months? hows life? people just come and go, its just the way of life. you cant stick forever with someone, i mean like, wth, why not stay as acquaintances, not too far, not toooo close, just nice :) no one in this world can ever be trusted, unless you really think that the other party wouldnt give a shit  of spreading your rumors. rumors, what exactly is it? after you hear A, your friend, talking about B, you just jump to conclusions and judge. i dont do judging. you dont know the story, yet you judge. i have no idea how long this is gonna last, but i'll just stay still. if you hate me so much, why bother faking a smile, or giving a damn for my life. you asked for i. if it weren't for you who was being so ego, it wouldn't have happened. and then you whine about it, wanting something back so badly. i guess he was wrong to choose you. how did you expect me to know any bullshit of your previous life? look, i didn't give a damn because it was unnecessary. or maybe i did know about 'it' but it was unnecessary. the past has gone, and you are still hanging on to something you might not possess again. and maybe if you possessed it again, so what? even if i liked that possession of yours, and i would get hurt it's yours, so what? i cant manipulate the fact that its yours already. and you...... i have no idea, said something which really left me hurt. after that amount of time i have gotten to know you, i didnt know you were this rotten. did the saloon trim off your hair too much? untill you have to say this much about me. if i'm that terrible, why give a - of my life, haha lol, haih lumrah hidup?. 'my best friend- i share every single 'gossip', talk and cry on the phone together, listens to me, etc etc' just because you share everything, well, i didnt say its all about boys, and talk every single minute, best friend? seriosly? 


My asdfghjkl boi is probably taking a tour around the museum right now :) or perhaps fishing at the sea B) 
i miss him so much, and wondering, when will he be back, when can i have the chance to see him again? each time my mind is not occupied, i think of you, and smile to myself, it gives me satisfaction. how many times i have actually thought of you, thinking you're here to do everything with me, driving me back to kampung to meet your family, looking as cute as ever in baju kurung, and most importantly, spend my life with you. i dont give a damn of what you think my imaginations could be. haha, FIL :) cant wait to meet yours. 

remember these? :) my friend says you look like chinese. LOL ching chong chiang language :DD 
UHUK, you know what it is, BLACKandYELLOWBLACKandYELLOW


TEEHEE~


btw, i love dramas and interesting stories, i bet you'll become a famous scriptwriter one day ;)